Turning Three

It's the 26th of May. I couldn't bring myself to think that I have turned on my third year of staying away from home, here on this foreign land. These three years seemed long and short at the same time. Too long were the times I missed my family, my country, my home. Too short were the times I had yet to stay here to become who I want to be. There had been ups and downs and many more to look forward to, yet I have to live through it all. The good times and the bad times, all part of life I cannot avoid.
As I turn three, I sit back and think of where I had begun. But most important of all, I focus on what lays ahead for me. I believe that life is a matter of choice and you end up where you are because of your decisions and so I always decide to plan ahead. There are a lot of things I want to achieve at once and I have to remind myself that everything will not always happen the way I wanted it too.
There is still too much to gain, too much to achieve, too many to learn. And now as I turn three, I am looking forward to turning four.

Feelings

Have you ever felt like giving up but know you can't? Have you ever felt so numb that you are able to drive your car at 80mph yet didn't feel a thing? Have you ever felt so envious to others who don't have to think about life because they can live the most of their lives? Have you ever felt so tired that you just want to lay still for hours or days or weeks? Have you ever felt so helpless that all you can do sit down and cry? Have you ever felt sleepless for days that when you are truly awake you think you are just dreaming? Have you ever felt angry knowing that you have no one to blame for everything that is happening all around you? Have you ever felt so empty that you just stare into nothingness for what seems like infinity? Have you ever felt like doing nothing at all but you know you can't so you do everything like a robot? Have you ever asked why all these are happening to you knowing that you are a good person and have done nothing bad to deserve this? Have you ever asked why do you have to suffer when others don't have to? Have you ever had thousands of questions in your head but not even one gets answered?

I do...

Rockstar

"Rockstar"

I'm through with standing in line
To clubs we'll never get in
It's like the bottom of the ninth
And I'm never gonna win
This life hasn't turned out
Quite the way I want it to be

(Tell me what you want)

I want a brand new house
On an episode of Cribs
And a bathroom I can play baseball in
And a king size tub big enough
For ten plus me

(So what you need?)

I'll need a credit card that's got no limit
And a big black jet with a bedroom in it
Gonna join the mile high club
At thirty-seven thousand feet

(Been there, done that)

I want a new tour bus full of old guitars
My own star on Hollywood Boulevard
Somewhere between Cher and
James Dean is fine for me

(So how you gonna do it?)

I'm gonna trade this life for fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair and change my name

[Chorus:]
'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blond hair

Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar
Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar

I wanna be great like Elvis without the tassels
Hire eight body guards that love to beat up assholes
Sign a couple autographs
So I can eat my meals for free
(I'll have the quesadilla on the house)
I'm gonna dress my ass
With the latest fashion
Get a front door key to the Playboy mansion
Gonna date a centerfold that loves to
Blow my money for me
(So how you gonna do it?)
I'm gonna trade this life for fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair and change my name

[Chorus]

And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary and today's who's who
They'll get you anything with that evil smile
Everybody's got a drug dealer on speed dial, well

Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar

I'm gonna sing those songs
That offend the censors
Gonna pop my pills from a pez dispenser

I'll get washed-up singers writing all my songs
lip sync 'em every night so I don't get 'em wrong

[Chorus]

And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary and today's who's who
They'll get you anything with that evil smile
Everybody's got a drug dealer on speed dial

Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar
Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar

Manny Pacquiao vs Ricky Hatton

Source: http://pacquiaovshattonfight.blogspot.com/2009/05/pacquiao-hatton-fight-replay-video.html